Friday, May 30, 2014

Have [Faith].

TRUTH: Asking for help is hard. Humbling. I hadn't asked for help because I didn't want to disappoint anyone. 
TRUTH: I can't do it all. 
TRUTH:  I don't love hurting people.  I've let people down when I make mistakes. Or losing control.
 I don't like failing.
TRUTH:  I needed to change things. In a big hurry because it wasn't working and I was most-definitely failing: my health, my family and my self.

NAKED TRUTH: I'm still worried about disappointing people.
When you open your eyes each morning - you don't know what the day will bring. But when you close your eyes
each night you know how you contributed to the things you couldn't control.
This week did not go exactly how I expected, but I have found a peaceful resolution. I felt heard. At times I felt scared and overwhelmed. I also felt like I made a positive contribution to an important conversation.
I will look back on today and know I did my best, I spoke from my heart and I saw goodness in people.
Thank you from my grateful heart.